today wasn’t one of my good days (stairs were a problem)
but i went to disneyland so
i went on space mountain anyway (because you hAVE to when you’re there, and eric and alex wanted to, and i told them to make me go even if i started getting nervous because i usually enjoy it, and there was no way to say “no for fuck’s sake, i’m actually serious, everything i said was redacted, i’m going to cry, it’s not a good day for this, it’s not” without making a scene and i’d feel bad anyway),
i started feeling like i was going to throw up so i started chewing on my thumb to distract myself and i bit so hard i broke a blood vessel (it hurts)
after the ride i almost had a panic attack but reigned it in bc i didnt want to scare anybody
dole whip is a p good cure for all ailments.
